My heart broke as they said their tearful goodbyes today, with Jen returning to CO. Lynn sobbed as she said to me, "I can't read books anymore."........"or do numbers". "Will you read to me at night, and ask other people if they will read to me in the day?" "Of course", I said. Not going to tell you that I am not sad tonight. There's just no way to spritualize this. The only reason I keep running is to be strong enough to care for her........and I don't want to fail her.
God give me grace here.........I miss her incessant talking, and her noise in the kitchen while I'm teaching, and ALL of the things that used to annoy me, let alone her wonderful companionship, and her love. Glass half empty, or half full, her life is slowly dripping away......and I am already missing the parts that are gone, but loving what I have left. Help her to know how loved she is, God.
Hear My Cry O Lord.........
