Well how to start?!  This summer has been a real stuggle. Up until like 3 weeks ago I wasnt running at all. I went on about two runs. One was an easy one with some friends. Another was with this girl who ran like 6:20 pace for 80 minutes. Im not gonna lie that was a hard run. Ive struggled a lot with motivational issues. I know I shouldnt but I just cant help the fact that I just dont wana go out and run for like 80 minutes. In the past three weeks I have gotten into decent shape. Done a lot of workouts.  I dont know why but workouts are a lot easier than regular running for me. I think its because I get them over with faster. Summer training has always been a struggle for me ever since my sophmore year in high school. I can just never get the motivation to go out and run. Nevermind the fact that I am running alone. That sucks! Going into college as an athlete who is on a scholarship. I should not have these struggles but I do. I need to get over it but its hard. Ive been thinking that past couple of days whether I even want to run anymore. Do I really like it? Or is it something that I am just good at and think oh its meant to be. I am just not sure anymore. But, I went on a 65 minute run last night with some friends and I grasped the feeling that I had this past winter in spring. The love for the sport. The love of running and having fun and succeding in it. So maybe I just need to go to school and run and once I get in a groove itll all come back. I dont know I guess I will see in like 12 days. Im just not sure. I know I still love the sport and love getting better but I just ask myself is it worth it?! I look at the olympics and all the nasty runners like centrowitz, GALEN MOTHER FUCKING RUPP and others and I think to myself I want to be them but at the same time right now I just want to be a teen age kid who hangs out with my friends. Itll all come to me soon. I just dont want to make a stupid decision. Maybe I already have. I really dont know. All I know is that I cannot be the only one who struggles with this.